Live Wire

This poem would have turned into a completely different way if I wouldn't have written it on 2 different days. The only difference between two days was that 1st half was written by a pessimist and 2nd half by an optimist. Actually its not much of a poem, after reading it I thought its more of an incomplete rap song but still have a look at the poem/rap song by yours truly

Live Wire
When the end of tunnel doesn't look bright
and where you are standing, you feel the darkness of night.


You feel deprived, You feel helpless
and you know that only way to overcome them is to become fearless.


but the fear has instill deep within the soul
and is stopping you to play your role.


The role that has potential to carve out new ways
and can become a reckoning force which can turn night into days.


Then what it is that is pushing you aside
Whatever is the obstacle, you have to become your own guide.


because deep inside your heart you know that you are a live wire
and all you need is a little fire......

Dilemma poem

I wrote this poem few months back in just 10 minutes. Almost everyone who has read this poem liked it except for me because this poem hardly makes any sense to me..... :P so i thought of posting it on useless blogger site where hardly anyone read your blogs unless you are Shobha De or the new sensation "fake IPL Player". I couldn't find any apt title so posting these two creapy words as the title.... :D

Dillema Poem
I've been in trouble many times in life
Sometimes situation so worse, that its being like under knife

This time the wave in my heart is searching for shore
I can't control it as my heart is hit by a strong force

That force is no-one but a beautiful mermaid
Her fish like eyes, curly hair & nature that is completely weird

I don't know why I step into the sea of love
& dared to fall for a girl as innocent & pure as a dove

I want to come out of it and again make hay
but unfortunately I'm not able to find a way

Now, before my heart break with a strong collision
I wish mermaid comes to me & say that its nothing but your illusion

Comedy of Calls

In my last blog i mentioned that i've left HCL & Convergys. Both were awesome place to work and i've got some really good memories of both the places & some bad ones also but there are few instances which always leave a smile on my face when i think about them. These were usually the calls i took. In HCL i was in billing process & in Convergys i used to do troubleshooting on Dial up Internet services. The good thing about HCL was that we didn't have to use the alias name as we used to cater Britishers there and Britishers are more friendly compared to Americans who usually are little racist (some are exceptionally good and some really gets excited when they get to know that you are from the country on which Slumdog Millionaire has been made.... I still wonder why?????). As a result we had to speak to those not so smart dial up customers in a weird accent which even used to confuse me & I can understand what Americans must be going through when we try to copy their accent. It was very unlike HCL where we used to speak English in our Indian accent and they never had difficulty in understanding us. Now talking about calls some of them used to be very hilarious especially in convergys where I was doing troubleshooting on dial up Internet and Americans used to think that every problem they have with their computer is because of slow dial up and it used to be very difficult & immensely painful to make them understand that dial up is just for Internet and has nothing to do with the other functions of computer

Now before I gave you the the full conversation of one of the call, I'll tell you how a dialer works.
First we create a dial up network on the computer by providing access number, user-name & password and then just asks the customer to dial it. It dials the access number and then gives you a message that "Dial up is connected". Now the call of Agent Brian who used to be one of the smartest bloke on the floor & a very dear friend of mine.
Agent Brian-Thank you for choosing AT&T Internet services. My name is Brian & may I have the tel no you are calling about.
Customer(very Irate & in a heavy voice)- Just cut that crap Brian and listen to me very carefully. I am not talking about my telephone line and why is it that every time I call you people, you ask about my telephone number. What does it has to do with my fucking slow Dial up Internet which i've been using since last 5 years and its been a week i'm unable to connect to the Internet.
(Idiot don't even know that dial up is connected via his tel line)
Agent Brian-I'm very sorry for the inconvenience caused regarding your dial up but sir your dial up is connected through your tel line and in order to pull up your account I need your tel no.
Customer-yeaaahhh... Just take anything what you want but get my comp fixed & the no is 654123789 and one more thing-My name is Charles Brown not Sir
Agent Brian-Thank you so much Mr Brown. Now could you tell me what is the exact error message you are getting and did you made any changes in the the last week or before that.
Customer- No I didn't made any changes & neither am I getting any error message. However my son visited me last week and used something called wireless card to connect to the Internet and after that this dial up has been a big pain in the butt to connect to the Internet.
(Agent Brian realised that his smart son has removed the dial up as the default connection and left this irritating dumb oldie to screw our lives)
Agent Brian- Ohh.. Mr Brown that's not a problem at all and I see no reason that why you cannot connect to the Internet and could you tell me that when double click on the dial up connection and click dial what message does it gives you.
Customer- I've forgot that.. Let me do it right now. Its trying to dial the number and giving some screeching noise like ti ti ti ti tuu tuu tuu tuu and now its says that dial up is connected but I still can't see the Internet.
Agent Brian-Mr Brown, Could you please double click on Internet explorer on the computer.
Customer-Listen Brian, its a very simple computer and i don't have any such hi-fi application on it. All I do is that i go to the Internet and check my mails.
(Agent Brian realised that cust is dumb beyond his imagination)
Agent Brian-Mr Brown, Do you see a big blue "e" icon on your computer.
Customer-Yesss, yes I do... (so much excited that as if he has found Osama bin laden on his computer)
Agent Brian-Mr Brown, that big blue "e" icon is called Internet explorer & now could you please double click on that.
Customer-Ohhhkkk.... Thank you do much for telling that (acknowledging in such a tone that
if he been told the secret of getting his young days back) and i've just double click on this (cust excitement is increasing) and heyyy i see Internet on my computer and it has got me my home page. I can check my mails (Now excitement has reached at its peak)
Agent Brian-Oh, Thats great Mr Brown, I'm glad I could help you in connecting to the Internet.
Customer-Brian, You are awesome man. I was trying to connect since last week and you got me fixed in just 2 min. Amazing, you gotta tell me that how did you do all this.
Agent Brian-Nothing Mr Brown, everything was already there on the comp, I just guided you in connecting to the Internet.
Customer-No, you've really done something and you are just trying to be humble. Please tell me Brian how did you do all this.
(Agent Brian realised that oldie won't understand & its time to give him some hi-fi funda)
Agent Brian-Well Mr Brown, actually i rectified your connection from my end by checking few circuits.
Customer-Brian, you are not only awesome, you are also a Genius. You rectified everything from your end. That's Great. Only a genius can do that and that too in 2 minutes. I appreciate that and now I want to talk to your manager to appreciate you.
Agent Brian-Thank you so much Mr Brown and I'll just call my Manager to talk to you. Please be on hold.
(And the call ended with Mr Brown appreciating Brian to his supervisor and an applause from everyone on the floor)

These are some of those calls which make you laugh and also brings a smile on your face when you think about them. There are many more.... May be next time.......

Free time

Now that i've all the free time in this world, I've got just 3 activities to do- watching T.V, surfing internet & sleeping. While going to sleep it does give me a lot of guilt feeling but the fresh morning washes all that away. Studying seems to be the toughest thing thesedays & considering the fact that i've to start MBA this year, it gives me a lot of hiccups.

Got the call from Mr Flamboyant today & had to hear all his silly advices & theories about life. He thinks of himself as "The Ultimate Dude" who can make the girls go weak in their knees but he hardly knows the fact that with his kind of attitude even the girls think of him as the same way the boys think of him- "The Ultimate Gan**". The other guy who also sometimes gives me this kind of shit is "Mr Desperado" and he put them across in such a convincing manner that he's the only guy who is doing all the worthwile things in this world. However there is one thing for sure that both guys are a great company to be with very pleasing personality & awesome sense of humour.

One thing I fail to understand is that why every Tom, Dick & Harry gives me their piece of advice about life & also suggest me about my career plans. This is the only thing that really piss me off. Maybe I need to take that zombie look off from my face & start reacting the way as if I've just finished my PHD in Rocket Science.

Leaving Convergys was a mistake but i had no options & HCL was a blunder which i really repent and thats the reason with all the free time i've to take out my frustation on this stupid blogging website writing some really stupid blogs. Iffff anyone reads these blogs & try to find some sense in it, I'm really sorry it dosen't even make sense to me also... :(

Being Myself

Now that I've realised that shani dev is really after me for all my sins as its been the 3rd consecutive year the month of April has been giving me some real shocks so i've decided that rather being a bhola bhala its time to being myself. Its time that i should rather being try to be a good boy, bring in some elements of cunningness & selfishness. I've always believed in karma & i guess so far i was interpreting the karma only with a single perception. If i've been already getting the flack for all the wrongdoings of my past i guess i should bring more colours to my present so that atleast i don't repent with the straight face asking que "Why me?????" after being so nice to everyone.
Its time to settle scores & get the life straight.... & now i will write all that things in this blog which i always wanted to write & tell people. If some of them read that stuff they'll really get hut but as if I care... :D but hey how can they even reach to this blog now that i've tear all the pages of my secret diary(which was no better than a 8th class girl's diary)which contained the link, thrown it in the garbage & also to be on a safer side changed the link to this blog... Still, only one man can reach to this blog- Mr Loverboy.... he's been after a girl since last 7-8 years & the amt of time & money he has spend on that girl he could have pataod atleast 20 girls by now but that girl is a real chick... If Mr Loverboy gets lucky, then his desperate wait would be worth it & by the way he himself is a frequent blogger.... he's got into blogging very recently coz till now he was only writing the diaries & sometimes also his dreams and then used to ask people to comment on them...lolzzz but now he's getting into topics which is good for him & also for his tortured blog followers..... waise Mr Loverboy is quite similar to me in thought process & has been a very true & dear friend till now...
ohhhhhh....... I wanted to write on something else & end up writing on the loverboy... :P. Not a problem- "There is always next time"

"QUESTIONS OF LIFE????"

When you are growing you get different questions in different phases of life. Before you start your teen life, you come across questions as "In which class you are???" or the most common & stupid question one can ask a young child "What do you want to become in your life?" ... Few people will ask why this question is stupid, Its stupid because 9 out of 10 children will give you the most obvious reply - "DOCTOR" or "PILOT" & they will give you this answer with so much confidence & excitement that for a moment you'll think he is going to receive his degree tomorrow.

When you become a teenager, the level of questions becomes different and what makes them different and funny is the psyche of the person asking you that question. If it is asked by someone whose child has passed the class in which you are currently in, you can expect a volley of questions mixed with suggestions & sometimes also the answer itself. To take an example, the so called interview with such parents starts like this:
"Hmm, So you are in 9th class right now, how are you finding it.... before you can reply ki uncle, abhi to maine books par se dhool bhi nahi jhadi.... you'll get the reply also- "Its a very tough class, you need to study atleast 5 hrs a day"... Before you can come out of the sudden shock of 5 hrs, you'll get the suggestion also-"Don't take it lightly, this class is going to decide your future"... you constantly nod your head in the fear inducted in your mind by the stupid son of a gun & here comes the main point which was apparently the reason that this one-sided conversation was started in front of everyone present there "My Son is doing his engineering & the reason he could make into this elite engg college was that he took his studies very seriously from 9th class. He scored 85 % in 9th, 92% in 10th ... bla bla bla & everyone present there get to know all the achievements & unwanted data of his genius child". Now before all the mediocre children present there starts disappearing due to embarrasement, you'll get the final suggestion & the most unwanted offer "You must meet him, he'll give you tips on how to schedule your studies & also about the various books which you should study"..... apart from this frequent question which you'll hear in almost every family function or party, you'll get to hear some illogical & embarracing(in front of everyone) questions like "Ohh(looking at everyone else also waiting for their opinion as well), didn't someone told you that you look exactly like your father???" These jokes do irritate but you start thinking about all those naughty neighbour jokes which you can hit at that aunty(these questions are usually asked by the aunties) right now keeping her son in mind... Some flamboyant people will even ask you questions like "Do you have a girlfriend???"or height of stupidity could be "How many girlfriends do you have???" & these questions are asked in front of atleast 10-15 people(including your own family)... & when you have no option but to smile, they'll say "Ye to kitna sharmata hai"...

Now you have even crossed your teenage life & the interview becomes more gruesome.
Questions becomes more like a comment- "Why are you doing this course? It has got no scope".... "Why didn't you gave that exam??, my son cleared it & look now he is settled in life??"
.... "Why are you are working in a BPO??" & they make face as if you have given them the socks which you've been wearing continously for last 2 months.....

No matter how much idiotic, embarracing or even funny these questions are, but if you can tackle & succesfully answer all these questions, atleast you aren't tagged as a loser in our so called Society..

My Pain is my Destiny & I can't avoid it

Mahatma Gandhi taught the world " When ordinary people come together they can do extraordinary things"
And there are few people who have potential more than that of an ordinary person but still they perform below par than an ordinary person. These people are more responsible for the down gradation of society & humanity than people who are actually responsible.
Reason is very simple- A bad guy will always do what he has to do but if the good guy doesn't oppose or counter him then what is the purpose of his life.

There are many people who with hope & glitz in their eyes see you as someone who will not only raise his standard but also theirs. They see the potential in you as the wealth they will cherish for their whole life.
Lord Krishna very rightly said to Arjuna- " If you don't fight to your potential then history will never forgive you for the triumph of evil"
If Lord Rama wouldn't have defeated Ravana then society would have never forgive him as even before killing the Demon he gave everyone a ray of hope that he has come to this world to triumph Good over Bad, Right over Wrong and Justice over Injustice.

The examples mentioned above are of greatest & most honourable men & it would be a sin to compare our self to them. However moral and message remains same even today & the ordinary man who carry more potential than other people also carries the dreams & hopes of people who live their life through him.

When that person of great potential fails to capitalise on it he not only shatter one but umpteen dreams and the pain & agony of those shattered dreams becomes too heavy for his weak shoulders to bear. But now he can't run away from it as all that pain has become his destiny & he can't avoid it.